Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Been Thinking More About Fences...
I DO need a few more boundaries in my professional life, I think. I'm a people pleaser (reforming). I like everyone to like me, and the reality is that not everyone is going to like me. Accepting that is difficult for me. I need to get over this, I think. Because I can't control how people perceive me, and to continue to be hurt by that is difficult.
However, here's the bigger conclusion I've come to. I'd really rather be hurt than to shut myself off from feeling things for people. Feeling means my heart is still tender, still open to others. Being vulnerable is part of loving others. And God says I can't love Him, who I can't see, if I don't love my brothers, who I can see. My pastor actually preached on this Sunday...go figure! God coming through right when I'm listening and waiting to hear from Him!
I am transparent in my life and my journey because I care. I care about helping people. I care about people in general. I love easily...which sadly means I get burned from time to time. It's still worth it. In the end, the people who care about me are going to stick around, and those that don't really care won't. And I'm OK with that. At least right here, right now I am. Let's hope it stays that way!
Thanks for taking the journey with me...