Tomorrow is the day. The BIG day. I'm going back to my orthopedic doc. I'm going to get some new x rays and see how much more degeneration has happened in my knee joints and determine if anything that can be fixed by something other than a knee replacement is going on in my left knee. And I'm nervous. Very!
My nerves are upset for a few reasons. After all, this IS the doc that suggested I might prefer to ride a motorized scooter to deal with the pain! But really, that one comment triggered perhaps the most comprehensive and overwhelming change in my life to this point, so I probably should thank him when I see him tomorrow!
The main reason I'm nervous is the thought that perhaps he's going to tell me there is nothing that can be done and I'm going to have to find a way to just deal with the knee pain. I don't want to have daily knee pain until I'm older and have lost the rest of the weight I need to lose in order for the knee replacement I will have one day to be successful. If that's the case, working out is going to be difficult...painful. And I'm not looking forward to that.
But you know what? There's no sense borrowing trouble. Knowledge is power. I believe that. Time to live it! Time to go find out what's up with this knee so I can move forward.
And you know what else? NOTHING that I hear from him tomorrow changes my goals or the fact that I WILL reach them. I might have to change the plan for how to achieve those goals, but you mark my word...I WILL reach those goals!
So, keep me in your prayers tomorrow, please. I'll let you know what I find out...